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How Am I Alive [LP]

by Eric Dutton

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1.
If I could move boulders, then I wouldn't be Sisyphus I could be Atlas insisting I deliver this Globe to its rightful spot, atop Orion's spur And that's a statement of which I concur I write these words, my mind's absurd It's like I'm running outta time, I'm just trying to be heard So I dig deep in my atoms Trying to find what I fathom I know somewhere there is passion A bastion of pace, lastly the pieces to the puzzle Apparently I'm no good at Termites in home, run, you might hear that wood crack When they push you, you better push back Only take the high road for better aim I'm just playing, it is not conducive It's what we choose when we're at heaven's gates So I better get my head on straight Twist it a little tighter, get higher, and I levitate Hit my damn cieling and wow, I elevate Yeah, then I shoot for the stars Pass by the moon and Mars Not looking where I'm going and turn around only to find that I'm way too far Oh my God Then I see a glimmer of hope, and it's gold And it's coming towards me, and is this Is this the key Am I in the deep Is it gonna drag me down? Is it gonna pull me under? Take my breath away Get you a new life And fresh air That's classic Yeah, that's classic I'm Eric Dutton How Am I Alive The album Serenade on the beat If you panic, you might drown If you panic, you might drown If you panic, you might, you might, you might If you panic, you might drown If you panic, you might drown If you panic, you might, you might, you might Raise your glasses to the cieling, let's toast to this This world-ender that barely missed, overhead It was supposed to hit, we barely got a scratch Where my God is lacking, they make up for in tact I know my Father's here chilling, while I'm in my zone Thinking for a sign, I know, you flipped up that pinecone Time goes at an alarming rate Trying not to snooze my way through, the darkest place My heart can break, hell, everyone knows this I better be hopeless, else I'm tellin' a joke when I tell you that I'm ready to fucking go there, ugh I'm ready to blast off, just strapped on to the front of a rocket Shoot for the moon, if I miss then I'm up in the stars, aye Let our heartstrings say Let our heartstrings tell our story I'm going in circles I can't find it G-going in circles I can't find it Yeah going in circles I can't find home Can't find home I'm getting dizzy cause I made myself believe That time keeps coming after me I'm losing sleep, I wake up cold I just don't know Where to go from here cause the night sky Is getting blacker by the day and daylight's Striking me in my dreams and I wake up cold My heart is made of gold But right now it's made of stone Heavy strings and I'm starting to erode I feel it in my bones And my home, I just don't know Where the night sky is fading away Say hello to the sun...
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Losing Sleep 04:28
Eric Dutton LOSING SLEEP Prod. by Tellingbeatzzz My head's spinnin' like a galaxy arm I've penned writtens, spit venom that is actually odd Because at first I didn't know that what you asked of me caught Me off guard, we aren't all the same but... Because the garden of eden is really ours but we treat it With disrespect cause in the end it's just our hearts steady beatin' Along the path of where the water flows, I oughtta know despite my ignorance that this all I show I saw the coast, but all along the coast was never clear But every year I make the promises of where I call my home Take it all, I'm all alone. Uh. I hate it but I deal with it, It's been real since I realized just how realistic I have been my entire life, and since I can try it twice I'll try it again before my eyes go blind and I die inside My oh my, I wake up in a cold sweat I've been losing sleep I think I've lost my mind I need to calibrate Before I cross that line I've been losing sleep I think we've gone too far We need a satellite I think we're lost in the stars My legs sizzle with a colony of ants This room feels like it's way too hot So I flip the covers off, way too cold Not talking middle fingers, but the torch is what they made you hold Illumination in the darkness, I get it, I really do I just hope that when I get to dream that I can dream of you I'm feeling through with all the drama, you and me tomorrow Gonna witness the sunrise, gleaming in your hair We do not need the sorrow, breathing in fresh air For the first time in what feels like a lifetime My left brain finally chillin' in my right mind You make me wanna take my mask off - Shy Guy I love the green so I run to them hills Every hit is beautiful, raise you up to my lips Give you a little kiss, pull back in bliss Open my eyes again, this is what you represent I've been losing sleep I think I've lost my mind I need to calibrate Before I cross that line I've been losing sleep I think we've gone too far We need a satellite I think we're lost in the stars Runnin' outta time in the hour glass Watching every hour pass, how is that? I don't want the power back I just wanna live a little, I just wanna love a lot Through with all the indecision, sick of blowing up my spot I just wanna toke a bunch, talk to me and open up Tell me all your struggles and the obstacles you've overcome Share with me your dreams, your hopes, your goals, hopefully Together we'll achieve 'em and it'll be all you ever dreamed of Let's fly to the moon and wish on a blue globe Nothing lasts forever, that's something that me and you know Set my sights on the open road Unless I get hit by a Honda, I'ma die on my own accord And if I'm gonna dig my grave, I'ma dig it all, Cause it's worth the prize I saw inside the crystal ball I thought I missed your call, I'm not mystical I'm just happy that I'm chillin' all up in the stars I've been losing sleep I think I've lost my mind I need to calibrate Before I cross that line I've been losing sleep I think we've gone too far We need a satellite I think we're lost in the stars
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Eric Dutton MATANUSKA (ft. Mat Demaz) Prod. by Serenade Ahh... Eric Dutton is smoking weed And making a song Nature is healing I wish I didn't know the fact I cant stay another day I want to know when you're around But to move on is my fate No more time to linger around This time is locked in place Following stars around the house Plays our song once again Last thing I need right now is a little voice in the back of my head Screaming at me to get outta town But everywhere I look I see a mountain peak I try to climb to the top, but I end up tumbling down I just wanted to grab a star, so elusive in the summer When the winter comes cold, catch me looking upwards Holding my breath cause it blocks me, yeah In the yeard with the telescope you got me, Dad My body's numb but my soul isn't This piece of glass is a time machine, go figure The speed of light is one hundred eighty six thousand miles a second And that star is, uh, that far away Do some quick maths, uhh, carry the one Holy shit that's far And I thought it was a long drive to my friend's house So how the hell am I gonna get to the stars? I was born in the wrong fucking time, I think I wish I didn't know the fact I cant stay another day I want to know when you're around But to move on is my fate No more time to linger around This time is locked in place Following stars around the house Plays our song once again Harvest, the road where the spark was lit Diligent artist sits, same house where dark exists All I did was wake up and my Dad's dead No walked in the park like past tents The image imprinted, the vision of witnessing Holy Hell CPR to no avail Acute depression, I know it well Wish me and my brother got along a little better But we cool now, I should hit you up And next time that we hang out, we'll get lit as fuck We'll laugh and talk about the good days till the weed is gone Then we'll probably call Mom, put her on speakerphone That woman is tough, man, she's been through the ringer She's full of love, Matanuska is where she still calls home So I'ma climb to the top of the mountain Grab the nearest star that I can Climb down unscathed, give that shit to her and be like here Thank you for everything, I love you House of Misfits, a thousand wishes I'd wish for all of you to have love and joy a hundred times over Don't think I forgot about Leckwold or How we lit up the shit like leftovers But the dark and cold was eating us alive Vitamin D, we fucking need it to survive I don't blame you, leaving cause we tried BFFF's, it's our beliefs against the night We fight back, got the power of Gods Taking our damn lives back and every hour we lost How did we cross the threshold of depression Best know that the lesson is ingrained in our demons If they have any sense, they shan't return and I mean it God damn You know one of these days I need to make my way to Arizona Hang the fuck out I love you guys I wish I didn't know the fact I cant stay another day I want to know when you're around But to move on is my fate No more time to linger around This time is locked in place Following stars around the house Plays our song once again
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Eric Dutton ACROSS AN OCEAN ft Mat Demaz Prod. by Serenade I've been feeling like everything gon' be okay Whoa As long as I get far away from here I just don't want my heart to break That's the only thing I fear So I fly, I fly away Hopping on a plane to Australia If something like that couldn't tell ya I had no other option No other option but failure Sometimes it's just like The story should've been me on a damn stage Spittin' my soul out, seeing my Dad's face He should still be alive, my soul deflated Finding your father dead is severely overrated Cause at the end of the day, even the sun sets And if the stars are ablaze, I call it a success Across an ocean, the pacific specifically Don't know what got into me Not a dream that I finna see Whatever, that's history, clash enemies Drinking a fifth of Jameson Wine, coke and rum Just to feel enough like I'm hope I'm buzzed Miss you Dad, I won't sober up This shot's for you, I can't overcome I wished I believed in myself the way you believed in me I'm falling apart, I rot with the scenery Every vulture want a piece of me I keep losing people, good people The best of people, c'est la vie I got your boy, Josie Send love to Phil for me... I've been feeling like everything gon' be okay Whoa As long as I get far away from here I just don't want my heart to break That's the only thing I fear So I fly, I fly away Hopping on a plane to Australia If something like that couldn't tell ya I had no other option No other option but failure Sometimes it's just like Every album a canvas blank Shots up for the shit that ain't happen I'll make the planet shake Way too much on tectonic plates Ice heart, the Titanic sank Nice, who do I have to thank? The flight was like sixteen hours, meanwhile I reign supreme I'm in the back, like if we crash Then I guess my fate is just plain to see Thinkin' if I dip again to fix my heartbreak Insanity defintion, I'm in a dark place I feel the stars fade, it's just a hallway The walls can't actually close in, can they? Touchdown, got the dopamine rushing Hype to make an album that is hopefully something I can bring back to the place that I'm from I shine bright, no shade at the Sun My soul, I'm aiming it up My vessel in Kessel, a dangerous run ... But that didn't happen though I had no idea that this the last year my Dad was home If I knew, maybe I'da plan it different But they took you, and left the whole planet different And now me and Mat are both bonded that way Hats off for the man that you raised Serenade on the beat and support, we got your boy I've been feeling like everything gon' be okay Whoa As long as I get far away from here I just don't want my heart to break That's the only thing I fear So I fly, I fly away
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All I see is black ice And it's showing the way I haven't made it but I'm almost there It's a long way home Just trust that I will be there someday Because my journey takes me onward where The only mantra that I've ever known I hate to say but it's a place that I may never go Looking for closure, via better roads But it's just the way it goes, though Headed the wrong way, but I never saw the signs Had tunnel vision where I was in 2020 had me blind Hope I'm ready for 2025 I need to get my oil changed otherwise my drive will not survive through troubled times My way through life been guided by these little white and yellow lines It took its toll but now I also got to pay the fine My body paid the price The engine almost died But it stayed alive The motor overheating so I hope it stabilize Already left but I think I needed to take a right I feel the bumps just like the blade of a serrated knife There ain't no light so pray the stars will guide my way tonight And for my safety so I may arrive All I see is black ice And it's showing the way I haven't made it but I'm almost there It's a long way home Just trust that I will be there someday Because my journey takes me onward where At the start of the day, the sun rises Sit in the shadows, so come find me I was weak, playing hide and seek With my own joy, my own voice was kinda beat I can see that I'm about to trip The call of the void, I don't avoid the slip Stand up, I'm poised again Pick your poison if you think it's divine Going down to the final second, I'm ahead of my time, yeah Can't handle your new job, that's a turnover A lawn chair in the clutch cause you for sure fold up Losing my mind, I turn the world over DLo when I write, I keep my composure Southpaw, y'all pray for my downfall Ice in my veins, that's why I'm shooting it out cold This is my coast, y'all chill in your alcove I'm going all out, no fuel for the journey home
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Cob webs in my head, searching the attic for something God bless this nonsense, words in a panic it's nothing It's just jumbled, Scrabble tiles, a jumble Lightning and thunderstorms, a struggle So many things that I juggle Jenga, one slip, and I'm chillin' under the rubble No white flag, just a bloody rag Wiping my brow, getting up and fighting back The time is right now, Eric D gonna share a secret Cause Eric D gonna let you know where he keeps Everything, make it easy, is it green, is it weed Is it some type of alien enhanced tab of LSD OG, is it DMT? No, no, man it's me Attempting to fire the missile Into the sky with a brush, see just how high that it gets ya Painting the space wall, making it rainfall Turning it to ice like my angle is St. Paul Not I wanna live, God how can I forgive Myself for not doing the shit I wanted up as a kid? High hopes and big dreams Just hoops, no big screens Twenty years later, I write till my pen bleeds Underneath everything's a puzzle piece And if I'm cornered, I will take you straight to the edge (and-one!) A utopia how dope it feels to hold the pen, explode within The flow is sick, y'all are NaCL, ocean wind I turned the page and so begins The story of me Let it be told Turning these words into gold As I float through space and time I see the nebula in your eyes Oh you take me home The one that we can't find Your shine gives you away, girl I wanna show you, take my hand Head on your chest, tell that I'm stressed Rubbing my back to extinguish the mess Whatever it takes, I'll give you the world The whole Universe is the shit you deserve Just a man but I'm Eric D Raise your glasses, I can barely see All my life I was scared to be myself Checkmate, walk aimlessly In the desert drought, uh, my head is clouded Till the ink rains down, that says it loud Now the dirt is mud, drag my name through it no Whatever it takes, stupid, whoa Ad Astra, I aim to them, though Wrong dimension I don't appreciate your condescension But you demons have no clue No comprehension of my full potential I'm Apollo, beyond that Throttle, I got that I am on top of that launchpad Do it for Mom, Dad Wish you were here Jacob, don't worry, I'll bring souvenir Shoot for the stars, see the moon in the rear (Side note but my cat is being cute as hell right now) Ain't that something, I'm a spaceman cometh Determination is running in my veins I'm under the highway, smoking a cone Hoping to go my way is the high way, oh Lord Dive straight into a pile of hybrids Like my Prius is broke it's sitting idle in driveway Just a man but I'm Eric D Raise your glasses, I can barely see All my life I was scared to be myself But guess what, I'm the narrator now The story of me Let it be told Turning these words into gold As I float through space and time I see the nebula in your eyes Oh you take me home The one that we can't find Your shine gives you away, girl I wanna show you, take my hand
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The obligatory, "I'm back and it's been a minute The track and I'm here to win it" But really what I mean it's been sixty seconds I'm intercepting your indiscretions You miss your step and it messes with your head when I'm attackin' your zone, then I kick it out for the shot I know he's splashing it home, that boy Haze is a lock If I ain't give none, then I ain't taking shit See the night sky, where should I aim the ship? Pick a star, let's go, let's roll Let's go so far out we forget where we called home Turn around, unable to find the blue globe floating Don't think that I'm dead but the whole world ghosted Running away from the problem Gonna take shelter from thunder I'm coming to rain till I blossom Then hurricane winds torn asunder My fire put the summer to shame I cannot be doused, good vibes are on the house Just the way I feel Just the way I feel Just the way I feel Just the way I feel Got a chance to spark this light, Lemme park this car, start to write This author vibe has stuck with me all this time So each and every chance I get on this mic I rock it right, and rocket right past ya Gotta write faster, fucking up this game Yeah I sodomize rappers Pause, then I’m balling right after Book it till I finish, yeah I’m on the right chapter Picking the piece of the puzzle I’m on Get to my feet and I’m brushing em off Dusting em off of these tracks I laid em bare And made a prayer to take it where I only dreamed I ever could and never stood I’m aiming there Uh, so i guess it shouldn’t be surprising how I’m climbing Out the pits that I was lying in, I’m trying to defy em For the time I spent denying it, to honing it I’m striking with The fire of some lightning and the power of a Midas flick
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Eric Dutton INTO THE ELEMENTS ft Second Verse Prod. by Eric Dutton Tommy Wiseau in a panic Jodie Foster with a contact high Chasing stacks, I am not that guy I wanna combat strife Cause every day it gives it to me I'm sticking to it like my ballsack thigh I wonder why I wander far and wide To escape this feeling all the time Like I'm only here to walk the night And talk to light from stars a hundred thousand years away Feeling higher than helium Hydrogen smashed, flows wet, every breathe I take The best I make, the West my fate Yeah, I love to go spelunking for a treasure, just the chest I cave Taking the best punches that this world can hit me with I'm looking bored, no, rather indifferent Take initiative, now I have two sets I haven't won but I'm not ready to lose yet I stay hot and I ain't even gotta use force Not a tauntaun, barely keeping Luke warm AU, let's both turn gold And use our newfound hope to make the whole world grow When the night wind is cold And you're stuck, still as a stone Feel the fire in your soul And go out of your element Into the elements Y'all get nothing if I'm losing my will Never defeated in the shoes that I fill My true fate, I'ma prove that it's real Into the elements, with the music and feel it Snowy mountains, ice steps to the top I bet we can talk chill when the heavens'll flop The weather will stop, the temperatures for sure gonna drop The world gonna cop, but the truth will out The music's loud, the world gonna cap And keep shaking till the surface gonna start to blast Probably blow it's lid when the oceans start boilin' We know how it ends but please, no spoilers And when I reach the top and inevitably fall off Gravity will place me right where I belong And that's settled in nicely, still as a stone Just remember I'm a lighthouse, Willem Dafoe I got no enemies, I defeated the centerpiece And the rest of the demons cower in fear of memories Like here's the melody to descend the heavens on 'em Reinforcements has never ever been a problem When the night wind is cold And you're stuck, still as a stone Feel the fire in your soul And go out of your element Into the elements
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Heal 04:38
Eric Dutton HEAL Prod. by Serenade Do what you gotta do to heal Even if you have to reinvent the wheel Keep going round and round, that's real, that's real So put up your shield Ain't nobody here Gonna do this on your own Heal Take my broken haert, see what each part weighs Will it get to the whole? Or will it shot fake? Open arms, you can see my scars fade A testament I Shawshank'd out of that dark place I've been through the shit, the dirt, mud, the quicksand The words come naturally, a statue, I withstand The forces of Nature, you can't erode me, I'm golden Writing is Midas, try to decypher, I'm to aspire Higher than fire, my flames lighten the sky up I brighten the tired and dulled, pulled out from the choir What if I'm not ready, already doomed You already knew that I already zoomed To the stars in search for a home, one that's personable That's the beauty of the constellations Every one is all amazing, but if you just erase 'em It's up to you on how you gon' trace 'em My demons in the forefront, fuck it, yup, it's time to face 'em Take all the time you need, blue light I watch you shine Am I wrong? Or right? I just don't know... Do what you gotta do to heal Even if you have to reinvent the wheel Keep going round and round, that's real, that's real So put up your shield Ain't nobody here Gonna do this on your own Heal She left me in a bad way that left me in a bad way But I'm glad for the path break, back then I really can't say All I saw were black days, but now I know that I'm safe, so I can say that I'm healed It's amazing this feeling It's like I'm sixty-six million y.a. and blazin' between us Is a flame as crazy as Venus, like maybe it's genius Cause you're a dream come true, it's like I'm awake when I'm sleepin' But I've been prayin' and waitin' It's so amazing you came into my life when you did Unexpected in the best way Cause I'm ready for it, penny for a thought, so, pot smoke And my heart's steady forward, Cosmos in my eyes And you in my arms Been ready all my life, let's shoot for the stars Saturn's got the ring, I bet Jupiter calls My life is fucking dope as long as you are involved Take all the time you need, blue light I watch you shine Am I wrong? Or right? I just don't know... Do what you gotta do to heal Even if you have to reinvent the wheel Keep going round and round, that's real, that's real So put up your shield Ain't nobody here Gonna do this on your own Heal
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66 Mya 03:28
Eric Dutton 66 Mya Prod. by 1519 Music Group You don't have to try so hard There's no one around but us, babe Let's take off our clothes And take all the time we need There's colors colliding The night sky's dancing on the wall Picture perfect portrait portraying principality I don't expect a knife or a little voice in the back of me With you, because with you my heart soars Higher than the clouds, nice view of your art form You're something otherworldly, perfect for a spaceman Thunderstruck, or Hubble-thumping, surely this is grace land Now I'm zooming in on it, a beautiful spectroscopy Vibing with the wavelengths, kinda looks like life to me Kinda looks like light to me When the sea is rough, my head I keep it up B-b-but, I fight to breathe You're my oxygen tank, when I'm nodding away Tipping the scales, I hope I'm not in the way Money in my pockets, that's a knot in the weigh And you're like me with public speaking: hot in the face My life is better with you in the mix And if you wanna lay a layer, I'll put you in the mix (You don't have to try so hard) 28 Laps... I've been fighting demons Then I met you and you seemed to light the beacon Now my battles take a backseat Like traffic in a taxi, it's funny Because the meter isn't the only thing that's running, I am Into your open arms, oh my god You understand my silliness and tend to every broken part of me Now we're singing, let the world rejoice in harmony Never again will I be harming E Because you and I will be so high, we'll be hard to reach Because you and I will be so high, we got stars beneath And that sounds good to me You don't have to try so hard There's no one around but us, babe Let's take off our clothes And take all the time we need There's colors colliding The night sky's dancing on the wall
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Eric Dutton GOTTA KNOW (EXPLICIT) Prod. by 1519 Music Group If you wanna, if you wanna Gotta know, gotta know If you wanna, if you wanna Gotta know, gotta know If you wanna, if you wanna Gotta know, gotta know Top form, pot holes, in the open road Got no heart left, so it goes Overloading this system, overdose Inject me quick, I'm almost comatose I am not your rival, this is all 'bout survival I'm tryna find ya, my ideas have got no lightbulb Time's are just gettin' tighter, like twenty minutes past five or My hands are inside my pockets, I'm diggin' round for my lighter Cause if I'm to get higher, I need some fire I need some time to myself, stop to watch my reflection And try to find in myself, the grace of god for protection I've been self-destructive in irreperable ways And the only way I can say I made it is if it's in the bed that I lay Screw it, I need to get my head on there straight Before I twist it off, maybe it is better that way Don't ask me where I'm going, I'm just headed that way I'm always looking up, I guess my head is that way If you wanna, if you wanna Gotta know, gotta know If you wanna, if you wanna Gotta know, gotta know If you wanna, if you wanna Gotta know, gotta know It's really hard to be humble when you know you're so dope (Nah I'm just kidding, it's actually pretty easy) If you really thought I would stumble, I got your nose You're gullible, now I'm at your throat Like a shock collar, I am top dollar I'm a rottweiller at a bonfire I'm a songwriter, I'm an all-nighter I'm the type of guy to think a song's fire Then stay up past dawn mixing it, I'm beyond tired It's not a sacrifice if I love it No baggage, just luggage These demons know where to shove it This murder scene I can't stomach I'm sure to dream but can't touch it But the fact that I've been making songs since four Got me feeling like everything and more's Gonna be okay when I open up that door Cause the window's shut, I implore you Forward's the only way, stop dwelling On the past, there's no secret that it's not telling When my thoughts heavy, get the pot ready Ending up so stoned, I'm rocksteady Not saying I figured it out yet Just saying there's no more room in my life for doubt That's pretty good, I should write this down If you wanna, if you wanna Gotta know, gotta know If you wanna, if you wanna Gotta know, gotta know If you wanna, if you wanna Gotta know, gotta know
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Eric Dutton BEAUTIFUL DAY Prod. by Serenade It's a beautiful day It's a beautiful day to be dope Nothing's in my way Nothing's in my way Got the sun on my face Got the stars in my eyes Got a joint to my lips I got you by my side It's a beautiful day I hope it lasts forever Holy fuck, I ain't gotta go to work today This shit great, this shit great This my favorite day Smoking a joint outside, got the sun on my face I feel as high as fuck, what the fuck Am I sound asleep? I don't think I'm counting sheep Never been the type of guy, that I would be down to meet Till I got my shit together, now it's been forever I'm about to pop - like a can of Dr. Pepper It's not the weather I wanted to see Rain clouds, I feel incomplete Stay down when you dealin' with me Cause I pop-pop-pop on you motherfuckers And I'm a monster, and I love the way you lie What? Did you come to pay the price? I would run to save your life Yeah yeah yeah Yeah yeah yeah If you wanna know a fun fact, I eat my cereal dry Ice cold milk on the side, just the way that I like And to be more specific It's Cinnamon Life God damn, just to clarify That was me smoking a joint That was not me smoking cereal I know it's a little confusing because of the juxtaposition I want the hook It's a beautiful day It's a beautiful day to be dope Nothing's in my way Nothing's in my way Got the sun on my face Got the stars in my eyes Got a joint to my lips I got you by my side It's a beautiful day I hope it lasts forever I just wanna do a quick little shout-out To everybody I love when I was down for the count Y'all were there, had my back, gave me a helping hand Give yourselves a pat on the back, y'all are fuckin' grand I just wanna clarify something My dick is so fucking big I need a wheelbarrow to lug it Oh fuck it, I'm coming, there's something in my stomach Wanting to get out It's the fire inside and it's fighting it's way out, so I Lift off, pen off the page So much heat I pissed off the rage Pay respects, no minimum wage Save myself, take that shit to the bank, like Can I put this in checking? Okay, give me a second I know my ID's around here somewhere, let me just- Alright, put it up, bitch Give me all your fucking money, whore (Oh please, don't hurt me, you're never gonna get away with this!) Bitch, I don't give a fuck Give me everything that's in the safe I'm just gonna spend it on strippers, booze, and fucking Chex Mix It's a beautiful day It's a beautiful day to be dope Nothing's in my way Nothing's in my way Got the sun on my face Got the stars in my eyes Got a joint to my lips I got you by my side It's a beautiful day I hope it lasts forever
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Eric Dutton DURBAN POISON (ft. Mat Demaz) Prod. by Serenade I've been feeling like I'm falling apart I've been feeling like I shot for the stars There's so much room to grow But the moon cast its shadow down on us We made the fire, gather round, promise Everything is gonna be okay We're going there don't be afraid So you know how like when you're falling asleep And your mind's kinda drifting here and there And just randomly you think of something you did when you were ten of eleven And you're like "fuck!" I hope no one remembers that Yeah that keeps me up Thoughts and prayers for the ones who can't sleep My brothers and sisters around the globe Marijuana and melatonin for every insomniac that I know Yeah, I hope it helps and I overslept And I know a mess when I see one At least my eyes are a nice shade of blue I guess Resentment rarely leads to redemption Not the worst, but never see imperfections Heavy fog in each direction Made me look twice when they teach the lesson Keep deflecting, pay the toll, make peace with blessings Ain't reachin' heaven, need to cease the stressing College dropout but he's professin' He wasn't strong enough, a weak confession Cut me, I bleed depression, decompression To ensure that I flow like he's Progressive This is self-expression And the treasure is where my chest is Everything is gon' be okay Everything gon' be okay I hope I'm right I hope I'm right I hope I'm right I've been feeling like I'm falling apart I've been feeling like I shot for the stars There's so much room to grow But the moon cast its shadow down on us We made the fire, gather round, promise Everything is gonna be okay We're going there don't be afraid So what you want from me? Another home run? Like I got the bases loaded And I'm pointing like a shotgun All the faces frozen, like I just popped one And now there's spaces open And I swear to God I'm not done Get your popcorn, 'bout to pop off Like a bottle top spun Knock, knock, bitch, I'm the one who walks tall While you wannabes talk hard I told you I'm gonna be a rock star Catch me surfin' over cop cars More bars than a jail cell Call the bail bonds, wish me farewell Cause I'm long gone, I done set sail In the deep sea and I won't fail Chasing sweet dreams, away from nightmares, cause They used to shade me, drive me crazy Like I'm racing on the highway blazing eighty miles easy Reaching for the metal Lead me from the Devil But teach me from this level I must learn how not to burn When the fire churns, in the trials I will swerve I will smile at the curves, I'll go higher than the birds Spread to the words, through your nerves to give courage Through the worst, when you feel like you could burst Like a thirst, got a hunger for more Everything is gon' be okay Everything gon' be okay I hope I'm right I hope I'm right I hope I'm right I've been feeling like I'm falling apart I've been feeling like I shot for the stars There's so much room to grow But the moon cast its shadow down on us We made the fire, gather round, promise Everything is gonna be okay We're going there don't be afraid
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Eric Dutton MOONLIGHT Prod. by Eric Dutton [Verse 1] You're so boring you put a hole in my heart Barracuda tooth and nail the way you tore me apart We're the same, sure, show me your scars Forward we march, we keep on soldiering on Frozen beyond measure, the treasure is in our chest I've said it before, and yes, I'll repeat it till my vocal chords Have grown the rot that finally reached me Deceased me, resequencing, each memory Lingering till it's all just a mess And you'll never guess that the recollection remembered To come home but forgot the direction The devil is on his shoulder, guiding him to perfection I beg of you, remember heaven Never let him win, cause [Hook] You fan the flames, just take my hand, don't say my name You don't have to say a word my darling I haven't changed, I made my stand, won't fade away Your eyes reflect the moonlight, baby [Bridge] Make me feel like I'm on top of the world Make me feel like I'm on top of the world Make me feel like I'm on top of the world Trustfalls on the top of the world But you got me, and I got you And you got me, and I got you And you got me, and I got you I got you, I got you... [Verse 2] It didn't audition, so why would I cast doubt I wanna lift you up without throwing my back out No smoke, just stoned in my glass house Down bad (good up) - toking my last ounce Middle finger in the air, pinky swear I'm all there in the head... uhhh Damn the way he spits, he's fitting to leave 'em hanging by a prefix Recent events have left ya knees split Like what I do to defenders when I see rim I got that quick first step, before you know it, I scored It's like a Pistol whip, passing over the board Sure hope you can swim, there's no sea on the shore [Hook] You fan the flames, just take my hand, don't say my name You don't have to say a word my darling I haven't changed, I made my stand, won't fade away Your eyes reflect the moonlight, baby [Post-Hook] You fan the flames I've made mistakes, I'll take the blame I've made mistakes I've raised it higher than the stars My beating heart's on fire It's on fire, oh [Outro] Make me feel like I'm on top of the world Make me feel like I'm on top of the world Make me feel like I'm on top of the world Trustfalls on the top of the world But you got me, and I got you And you got me, and I got you And you got me, and I got you I got you, I got you...
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The higher I climb The farther I fall Steps to the stars One rung at a time (Don't look now) As your feet lift from the ground Keep your head above the water When you come back down There's life above us take my hand I won't let you drown I'll pull you up when you can't breathe Your dreams ain't make believe so come with me Come with me And take my hand we'll make 'em real Afterlife, angel dies Sacrifice, we paid the price Sunday morning, cherry skies Whipped cream clouds, I take a bite Chicken Little and the sky comes falling down Raining cats and dogs and meatballs all around This is just the beginning, pick up the pen and sprint to the finish RIP'd with a sense of descendants Who sent the sinners to sit in repentance Wishing independence from the ones who oppressed them Stressed them, put them to death them, I guess then I've grown bitter and cold like the winters of old My heart on my sleeve, I throw it into the snow Just to see how far it can go My gold soul has no value when it turns into coal So I lean into the pressure, make a diamond out it Thank my lucky stars the fusion has a higher power Now or never, got a feeling in my bones Since I dripped outta college-and, now I'm dealing with the blows From a wind so frigid, I need a sunrise stat Acknowledge the Lunaria but what's my path? A solar system planetarium retreating the zenith Higher than cloud nine, what's beneath 'em on Venus Like it's about time, cook a pizza in nine seconds I reckon, I like it a little crispy, eyes beckon To the horizon because the sun is peeking Pillars of light rising up like a hundred feet Never seen this before in my life Take a couple snapshots to capture the light And then I pocket my phone Cause I don't wanna live this digital life 24/7 Just give me the night The higher I climb The farther I fall Steps to the stars One rung at a time (Don't look now) As your feet lift from the ground Keep your head above the water When you come back down There's life above us take my hand I won't let you drown I'll pull you up when you can't breathe Your dreams ain't make believe so come with me Come with me And take my hand we'll make 'em real
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Falling through the cracks, invisible to the naked eye I spit ethanol flames, so prepare to die Might torch ya spot like a woodland fire I'm a force of God, told ya I'm like a goodyear tire It's like I'm made of rubber the way that I bounce back My motherfucking anthem I made for the soundtrack How's that for a platinum hit? Y'all are flaccid dicks, down bad, zero shits, you asked for it I've been made stronger from the blackest days Outliving my demons I watch them pass away Frail and weak cause they failed to beat This fucking Hercules on the page, the grail's complete Hail the King, love songs wrote but now you're out of reach Now I'm down to be what I've been striving my whole life for: at peace I'm breathing, my heart's beating, releasing the stranglehold on my happiness I didn't realize I was keeping On the edge, we're falling apart Blissful times we circle around On the way hollowed out my heart Got a bright future ahead On the edge, we're falling apart Blissful times we circle around On the way hollowed out my heart Got a bright future ahead So make it rain, like I was mourning again Sanity unborn unkempt, got more time to repent Everything is fine and peachy, dont mind the speech I'm feeling fine discreet, my mind diseased in time im keen So kindly leave, while I sit idly by looking at my screens Gotta keep a straight face, walking outside in this disgrace I see Had everything taken from me, I cant wait I catch up with years I missed from being a caretake I was just a prayer maker, thinking it was all over I became a hope retailer, retelling my story over Life is bittersweet, the inner demon is no longer my enemy The humidity from the ceiling heat, rained down on me This revealing feat, overcoming death, I'm not feeling meek Unphased by things that were annoying me Overjoyed as can be, deploying my self to work promptly Feeling good nonchalantly, I'll be the first to raise my hand I can say I'm feeling free On the edge, we're falling apart Blissful times we circle around On the way hollowed out my heart Got a bright future ahead On the edge, we're falling apart Blissful times we circle around On the way hollowed out my heart Got a bright future ahead
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*Everything is still up there, they're just hiding behind those storm clouds...*
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Eric Dutton PASS IT ON ft. Mr?E & Yamie Jamie Prod. by 1519 Music Group Oh, I really needed you I didn't know if I could make it on my own (But I've grown, and I know) You gave me everything I need If you could see me and the seeds you (Sowed in me, I hope you made it home) I wish I could show you my book, Dad (yeah) I wish I could show you my jumpshot (pure) My beard is "Phil"ing out too And my girl said she saw a couple white hairs Three years old, I had a nightmare I'm scared, I crawl into bed with you and Mom And it's the safest that I've ever felt (God damn, you were just right here, ah) Having you as a dad, one in a billion And I know several dudes who could claim the same No coincidence that we get into this creativeness and fade away, ugh But what I'm building? A legacy that celebrates the life you gave, the life you made There's nothing that I'd erase I know you're with me, so light the way, please Oh, I really needed you I didn't know if I could make it on my own (But I've grown, and I know) You gave me everything I need If you could see me and the seeds you (Sowed in me, I hope you made it home) I wouldn't be me if it wasn't for you I'm the spitting image of you, I love you more than you knew Just wishing I could hold you for a minute, maybe a few I'm looking up at the sky and I know you painted it blue Don't ever get it confused I'm honored you are my father, but I see you everyday whenever I look at my daughter And I just hear my own voice when she calling me Papa (hi Papa) Tell her 'thank your Grandpa for everything that I taught ya' I would move a mountain if it got in your way Got the strength of my father until I wither away Cause I'm the son of a King that found a dragon to slay Agony, pain, is what I felt when the tragedy came But I ain't ever felt for a second that the magic's gone And if you ever lost a parent now you have this song This one's for the moments that should've lasted long Hope my kids take what I gave 'em, and pass it on Oh, I really needed you I didn't know if I could make it on my own (But I've grown, and I know) You gave me everything I need If you could see me and the seeds you (Sowed in me, I hope you made it home)
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When you look up at the stars, do you think of me? Moonlight shining down on our history I gave you the torch to hold You made sure that it went cold But that was the me of old Now I'm here and I'm riding this UFO Yeah, yeah, oh, oh Just give me time to breathe (Give me time to) Just give me time to be (Give me time to) Give me lots of weed Just give me time to breathe) Puff, puff, pass that shit Just give me time, no Give me my time back Give me my time back Give me my time back Just give me my time When you look up at the stars, do you think of me? Do you think of me when you look up at the stars? Is your soul alive? Do you think of me? Do you? Smoking on them trees like I'm Carl Sagan Smoking on them trees like I'm Carl Sagan Always looking up like I'm Carl Sagan Always looking up like I'm Carl Sagan Do you think of me when you look at the stars? Do you think of me when you look in your heart? Poke and prod till it's Jenga Hope to god that we win this Overall I'll just pen this Onto my shoulders like Atlas I'm planning the standard of having to lift this Planet, askin' forgiveness Guess you gotta know that I'm on a roll It's rock and roll like we on a boat In a thunderstorm, so far from home And god only knows when it clears We'll find the coast through the tears And I know that we will, yeah Everything gon' be okay, yeah Everything gon' be okay, yeah Everything gon' be okay And I know it will Nothing's gonna ruin my high Nothing's gonna ruin my high Bury me in the booth when I die See that open road I do If I keep my eyes shut then I won't see a reason And I won't see the stars no more but that's fine, I'm hopeless and breathing That winter air, and it's chilly yeah, and I didn't care That my lungs'll freeze, cause I'se hungry For something to get me through, I get in the booth And I spit the truth when I think it through And my ink is used, and my mental's screwed But I'm still in tune But I'm max capacity, fillin' shoes Kinda funny that they thirteen's But the worst thing about Apollo missions is that they hurt me Just trying to, trying to feel the wonder Dance in the rain, not fear the thunder When I take off the mask, do I peel it upwards? Unsure of the protocol, like overall Just a little bit confused what the quotas are I'm not a know-it-all, need an overhaul The chances of me seeing utopia are Bonaparte, like Oh my god, like soda pop Can't shake the feeling I'm gonna blow, yo Just gimme a shot like Cortisol I wanna believe in me I wanna believe in me I need 'em to see I need 'em to see, who I am Type of guy to see the stars tonight I could find something like a sharper knife And cut right to the quick of the situation Is the patience I need just beyond my reach? Indescribable feeling, failing goals I'm almost three-oh, should I change my course? See the finish if I book it, but diminishing returns Got me outta my mind, sure, feeling kinda burnt Like I flew too close to the sun, I'm gone Who knew hope could be spun, right off Of a perfect grasp This is self-doubt battling, words attack I'm sure to last as long as my stamina has Gas in the tank, but I'm emptying fast I hope this'll past like depression of past Last breath, expressionless gasp I wanna believe in me I wanna believe in me I need 'em to see I need 'em to see, who I am I've was broken before Now I feel fine, alive, and dandy I feel a life, a love, and joy And I feel fine I told you I would be in time You know why? Because I let go Of everything that's grabbing me and dragging me down And I hope that one day Look back on this time and laugh Cause everything is okay
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Eric Dutton HOW AM I ALIVE (END CREDITS) Prod. by Serenade If the Sheetz hadn't been down, dude Then I wouldn't had the chance to bike to the moon Typical me, I go right for the lunar surface Not your typical dreams, I got a feeling that I got what I need It's not a heaven I spurn, it's just a lesson I learned A swerve can be a gentle nudge to the path you're supposed to be on So don't get yourself twisted up in the Eons It's time to give yourself a pat on the back You went from maroon-face shy to fuckin' lightin' the sky up Magnificent just how high you aspire Spark it higher and higher Sativa-hybrid, FTL The budtender he done told me it's the best he sells I can attest to that, the best, in fact, I'm soaring the heavens I'm exploring forever, just hold my hand, we're together I'm ready to let 'em loose, let the music inspire I answer every desire, when you inquire for a choir I'm aligned to the position that we're actually Light when It takes a human form, but more towards the bright side This complete serenity, as it enters me Illuminates the corners of my heart that were incomplete I know I'm more than the sum of my parts However many and broken they are I'm just a spaceman toketh, full of love, I've opened my heart I close my eyes to experience this The hope and awe of the wonder, the mysteriousness Hey Neil, are you hearing this shit? It's just simple optics, giving that mirror a kiss The Void? I've lost my fear of it I guess peering in pierced through its appearances I'm disappearing this unsettling feeling in the pit of my stomach Punching the air in triumph, I'm not kicking the bucket How the fuck am I alive, man, I did what I wanted...

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released October 25, 2023

Executive Produced by Eric Dutton, Serenade, & Haze.
Additional Production by Mat Demaz, 1519 Music Group, & Tellingbeatzzz.
Features by Mat Demaz, Haze, Yamie Jamie, Grant, Mr?E, Twelve 43 & Second Verse.
Additional Vocals by Khaedai

Presented by Midnight Sun Music (2023)

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Eric Dutton || Nebula-Hop artist, producer, and writer || On a path to a better world. Come with me. || Midnight Sun Music artist ||

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